The Deal

The Deal

Its a small but very strong word. just like FUCK. now FUCK is the most popular word in the world and is the most used word in the world. we all know what it means but we use it for everything. even when we should not be using it but we use it.

Deal is somewhat less famous and less known word but still good enough to raise eyebrows. we know what it means . The Deal.

I am not afraid of the dark but I am afraid to go in dark places

Dark matter is black all black when you can not see anything not even your hands, all you hear is your deep breath , and you know you are alive or still alive . you walk across the cave full of darkness ,can’t see anything but you do know that there is a way ,way somewhere which leads to someplace or to something. but we do not know , what it is .

Its an unknown , we do not know what’s going to happen next , so we are scared of it. we do not know how to fight and how to tackle with it.

Fear of Unknown.

I decided and made a deal to myself that I will be scared of the dark and scared of the shadows. I made a deal to myself that I will have a fear of unknown coz this way I will be alert. and will take calculative steps . I am willing to take risks and I am willing to go all the way but I am not ready to risk my loved ones lives. I love them and I cant have them pay for the risks I take.

The deal to the shadows which are always with me . its the light which guides my shadows , I made a deal to it that I will not be afraid of you , if you are with me , either you are my enemy or my friend.

Few days ago I came from work in the morning at wee hours around 3 am . after all night work from the other day I was all tired and was ready to sleep. I had a glass of water and went to bed and closed my eyes. I was ready for sound sleep and was ready to go deep in my dreams. I sleep alone in my bed with no one around , in my room there is no space for anyone , its been like this for years now and I think I am not ready for another person in my room or may be I am , or may be I am bit confused.

So here I am in my bed ready to sleep tight . going through the thoughts of the day and suddenly I looked at the wall

I thought I was all alone , but I wasn’t I felt I see someone right next to me on the left hand side of my bed. I felt someone was there or is there . I tried to calculate in my mind how far this entity is. it appeared very close to me , very close , very close, right next to my shoulder. I got up and it also got up with me and then I stood

I was scared but I had the courage to stand , I wanted to counter my fear , I wanted to fight , I knew if I will not fight , I will never come to know if I will win or loose , should I loose but I am not ready to loose without fighting , I was ready .

I was ready to fight. .

I stood straight and looked at it , on the wall instead, I realized it was my shadow. my shadow a friend or foe I do not know but it was something. it was time for me to find out.

why there is no response from my shadow ? when I move it moves , if I am still it also still. it was strange , can I kill it ? I thought but may be I should not. you are my friend or foe or neither of those. but you are with me

I make a deal with you that I will not be afraid of you .

I made a deal .

-Dolce

 

 

Tail in The Sky

Few days ago , I captured this image from my roof top . I am an avid photographer and I often use my smart phone to capture whatever I like and worth capturing. I have got lot of images in my collection which I clicked and I appreciate what I have , I often put my skills and imagination to test.

This particular image was during the ongoing monsoon season where in I saw this cloud trail passing over. I knew I liked it and I had to capture it . so ran to my room and got my smart phone to click this one .

For others it just might be a portion of cloud but for me it was something else.

For me it was a “Tail of Godzilla”. I imagined it as a tail of a giant lizard which just passed by and I am looking at it giant tail hovering over in the sky over the buildings. \

It gave me goosebumps .

Think I am crazy ?

I am

🙂

Baby have you forgotten your password

Oh my baby , I seems to love you so much . you are so adorable , so lovely , so charming , so beautiful but I never loved you for your body , I loved you for your soul which houses inside that skin.

OH! wait honey !

Have you forgotten your password ?

I know you are better , you know you are good , you know you are far better than me . I am me but you are not . I wait for you to write something , to pen down something , I wait for your words. I wait for your thoughts , I wait for your views. I want to know what’s going on in your mind. I want to know what have you thought about .

I want to know what your eyes see, I want to know how you take actions , I want to know how your body behaves. I want to know that do you feel lovely in your skin, you have a beautiful body baby , a lovely body, I still remember the smell of your skin, the touch of your body, my lips on to yours , my hands on you and yours on me , I cant seem to feel the same way again , Its magical. I loved a woman , and I still love one . and I will always love one .

But I don’t know who I love baby , I don’t who I live with ,

Not enough  love seems to be here in this world anymore , this world has gone crazy and its driving me crazy . I see people cursing each other , I see people killing each other , we cry all the time , we ignore those who need help , we ignore their tears , we hurt lovely adorable animals , we hurt those who are already been hurt enough .

I don’t want to live here anymore honey , I am tired of this world . I am hoping against hope .

But I do believe that there is a better world waiting for me . but I do hope in my world I will have you , I will be waiting for you baby .

But you seems to have forgotten your password honey .

Its alright , I hope you will unlock the door.

Unlock the door baby.

When wait seems to get over

I have been waiting all this while to see you . to see you for once. to see you for one time , at least after all these  years , I will see you . a hope , a dream which I had during my child hood but seems not to get over , my wait , I wait , waiting and I hope I will wait any longer because I know you will show , some day , you will come , you will show me the way , you will show me the light , you will show me the way to live , you will show me how to be happy , how to dream , how to live , how to appreciate things I have .

I had heard a lot about you , a lot, I got interested in you when I was as little as 15 years old , now I am 35. I still remember the day when I first saw “The x Files” . it soon became my fav television series , never a day I missed a single episode. I got excited , I wanted  answers , I wanted to know the truth , I wanted to know was it for real , I wanted to see the truth behind all this happenings around the world.

I always knew there is something , I always knew about you , I had always believed in you , I just had to see you for once.

OH! do you really exist for real . all these pictures on the internet are for real . are you here on this planet earth I live , are you there in outer space ?

NASA is no stupid , astronauts are not stupid who got your sightings hiding for long in their hearts only to give away everything right before their last breath . because they knew this world had to know the truth , they could not live with this lie and could not more participated in this lie which has sealed your identity .

Its funny and strange that we know you are there , there are number of evidence that you are here and there but for some reason there is not enough to say that you are here .

I don’t know what to say , but should I say that I have seen you for once, or should I say that you came to me for once to show your identity .

I don’t know , I am confused.

help me !